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      As we grow up we tell ourselves that we are not going to become our parents. Well surprise !!! Whether we like it or not in some way or another we become our parents. It may just be a common mannerism or a phase they use, but we are our parents.
       Don't get me wrong it may be different for some people but I think If you take a  really good look at yourself you will see the likeness. I didn't notice it myself at first. I had always noticed it in my husband. It scared the hell out of me, because at certain times and with certain things that he would do or say it would remind me so much of his mother. Like I said SCARY !!! I have already seen the similarities between my son and husband, and many times have had to tell my son to quit acting like his father, because to me it can be very annoying. It wasn't until the other day when I was sitting there having a conversation or should I say an arguement with my son, getting ready to spit out my final remark, when I opened my mouth said the words and  then just sat in silence, as I had just realized that at that exact moment I had become my father. I knew I had heard that arguement somewhere before over and over again . I was completely horrified !! I couldn't believe what had just happened. All this time I was so scared of my husband becoming his mother when I should have been really scared of becoming my own parent. I think what surprised me even more is that my son had already become me, every excuse he had, I remembered using the same excuses back in the day. but I don't dare tell him that.
         Who would have thought that would ever happen? Definately not me. It is funny now that I look back at everything from my childhood until now, and I realize that it is was pretty obvious it would happen sometime. All those years thinking that we would be better parents then our own. Telling ourselves that we will never do that with our own kids when in reality we do.

A long week

     Why is it when you want time to fly by it doesn't? When you just want the week to be over with so you can relax for a bit, the time just drags! That is how my work week has been. I swear I spent half the week just staring at the clock waiting for my day to be over. The worst part is the more you stare at the clock the slower the day goes,  but for some reason I can't take my eyes off the clock.
    
     So this week has not only been long it has also been very busy. I must say that I am starting to get used to the school plus work routine. It took me a few weeks but I am figuring it all out. I do need to work more on my time management skills, but that will take some time to figure out since that has always been an issue for me. I have never been one to use my time wisely.

       I ran my first half marathon 13.1 miles. It was hard but I was able to stick it out and finish. I was so excited to cross the finish line.The feeling of accomplishment was so amazing. This was one of those things that I never thought I would ever do which is why for me the finish had so much more meaning. It is awesome to think of the things that we can accomplish when we really put 100% effort into them. It is a lesson well learned and I hope that I can pass that on to my son.
    
       Even as adults we still learn anew things everyday. We surprise ourselves. Like they say you are never to old to learn.  I learn them on my own, I learn them from my son, everyday is a new learning experience. What I really need to learn though is to stop starring at the clock. That would help me so much throughout my work days.

       Well I really have don't have much more to say this week. It's just the same routine week after week. Some weeks more exciting than the others. This just doesn't happen to be one of them.

Part 2


  So this first week of school is over. My son survived his first week of high school and I survived my first week of college. Two major steps in both of our lives and we both made it through. I didn't think that either one of these things was going to be that big of an adjustment but it was definitely a bigger adjustment than I thought.
  Getting back on a regular schedule has to be the hardest part. After three months of doing whatever and going to bed whenever. It is very hard to tell a teenage boy to go go bed at a decent hour and even harder to wake them up in the morning at a ridiculously early hour. Especially when I don't even want to be up at that time. After about 5 times of going in to his room and trying to get him out of bed  he stumbles out of bed and in to the shower. Pushing time to the point so that he just has enough time to get in for a very quick shower, get out ,get dressed and out the door. That is definitely one routine that I hope changes. I figure by the time school is about to be over he will have it figured all out just in time to be on break again and screw the routine up.
  Not only is it about getting back on a schedule but also everyday reminding him to do homework and get everything ready that he needs for school the next day. Than I sit their and think not only does he have homework to do but so do I. Wow !!! after 16 years of not being in school I have homework to do. What a wake up call. I also have to figure out time to sit and concentrate on my work. Between both jobs, school and all the other activities we do in our family. It's about taking the time to sit down and do what I need to do to get my things done. I have never had to deal with that .It has always been about me working around my families schedule and going from there, but now it is going to be a little about me and that is a very weird feeling.   

Monday September 4, 2012


   So this week has been busy, interesting and challenging for me. That is definately alot to handle for one week. I spent the week getting my 14 year old son ready to start high school as well as the fact that I started my first semester in college. I dont' know which one is worse the fact that my son is starting a new phase in his life or facing the fact that I am as well.
   It all started with high school orientation that of course he didnt want me to go to but I went anyways. I didn't go on purpose to embarrass him or anything like that but I knew that their were things that I needed to pay for. Plus the fact that I had talked to some other parents and they had mentioned that they were going as well. So I knew it wouldn't look strange if I was there. Here I am walking through the halls of the school that I once attended remembering all the good times I had in school, but this time I am not going to class myself I am showing my son around, helping him find his way around. Now talk about a reality check.
    Next we are off to school shopping which at one time was the easiest thing to do. I could just run out to the store, pick up a few shirts and couple pairs of jeans and a pair of shoes and be done with it. Not anymore !! I get that he is getting older and he is getting his own sense of style, but when did the styles change so much. I like to think that I know what is in stlye and what looks good but if you ask my son he would tell you a totally different story. The hardest part of the whole journey is getting the kid to try on jeans. We go from store to store looking for jeans. He is just the type to pick them up off the shelf and say here we go they fit. He doesn't check the size or anything like that. So I have to tell him try the jeans on. So all he can do is complain. Which I can't blame him because I hate to try things as well ,but what I hate even more is returning things. It is such an inconvience and a waste of time. So all he can say is they don't fit, I dont' like the way they fit. For every pair he had some excuse. Finally we called it a day and left. We go back later in the week and end up buying the jeans that he didn't like the first time because for some reason now they fit and he likes them.  Every store I ask him do you want to go in and see what they have he says no I don't like that store. So I go in anyways and to my surprise we end up spending money in each and everyone of the stores. It's not like he just got one thing in each store he got multiple things in each store. Well let me tell you for not liking any of the stores my ATM card sure got a workout that day.
      So not only is my son going to school but I am going as well. I decided that it is time for me to finally grow up and decided what I really want to do with my life. I work a full time job and have been at the same job for 11 years but I have come to the conclusion that I don't really like it anymore. I want to do something more than just sit at a desk all day. Don't get me wrong I have been blessed with my job. I have a great hours, a great employer, I don't have to work weekends and great flexibility. I just think it is time to make a change so that is what I am doing. I figure that by time my son graduates from college I will hopefully be doing the same. All I can do is take it slow just a few classes at a time and in time I will finish. You know what they say better late than never.