Sunday, September 30, 2012

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      As we grow up we tell ourselves that we are not going to become our parents. Well surprise !!! Whether we like it or not in some way or another we become our parents. It may just be a common mannerism or a phase they use, but we are our parents.
       Don't get me wrong it may be different for some people but I think If you take a  really good look at yourself you will see the likeness. I didn't notice it myself at first. I had always noticed it in my husband. It scared the hell out of me, because at certain times and with certain things that he would do or say it would remind me so much of his mother. Like I said SCARY !!! I have already seen the similarities between my son and husband, and many times have had to tell my son to quit acting like his father, because to me it can be very annoying. It wasn't until the other day when I was sitting there having a conversation or should I say an arguement with my son, getting ready to spit out my final remark, when I opened my mouth said the words and  then just sat in silence, as I had just realized that at that exact moment I had become my father. I knew I had heard that arguement somewhere before over and over again . I was completely horrified !! I couldn't believe what had just happened. All this time I was so scared of my husband becoming his mother when I should have been really scared of becoming my own parent. I think what surprised me even more is that my son had already become me, every excuse he had, I remembered using the same excuses back in the day. but I don't dare tell him that.
         Who would have thought that would ever happen? Definately not me. It is funny now that I look back at everything from my childhood until now, and I realize that it is was pretty obvious it would happen sometime. All those years thinking that we would be better parents then our own. Telling ourselves that we will never do that with our own kids when in reality we do.

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